regard with loathing and contempt: to dislike somebody or something intensely and with contempt
intense word
intense feeling
i deleted one of my entries about me despising someone.. however intense if inappropriate, one has got to suppress it. to zero.
and i have to learn more suppressing. haha.
i've always agreed with jecs to say what no matter what. but these days, things are telling me that's not the way to go.
i am not entitled to just feel anything i feel. or if i actually am, i'm supposed to just wait for it to pass. and if it won't just pass me by... i've got to maintain my composure. time will make it fade away.
i'd keep telling myself that.
i'm sorry for things that made things worse. i've felt like hell those times but i shouldn't have made you feel how things were with me.
doesn't matter now. kalimutan na naten ang lahat.
peace everyone.
