he told me that i should hurt him in the most hurting way... for it's the only way to stop the feelings he had and just go...
i almost cried because i never really wanted him to go. but i have to shoo him away. i knew that from the start... but it was really hard to just push away someone who didn't do anything but make you feel appreciated... and someone who you find special because you have a lot of things in common.
so i didn't let go the first time... haha, i feel like an idiot 'cause i said goodbye one night but replied back when he texted the next morning.
this second time was the most hurting way, huh?... 'cause he stopped being stubborn. well i guess i must have hurt him this time... i need to.... but, gee, from the time i said goodbye til now, which is approximately 14 hours now, i have these chestpains. it hurts..
